I'm Back...
I"m back from the land of the unknown... meaning I have know idea where I've been or what I've been doing that has prevented me from writing. Let's see when was the last time I wrote ... Oh yes, I remember now...
First I want to say that Little *Rachael* continues to do well, and has competed 6 rounds of chemo. It is almost time for her to go to Philly for her last big dose of chemo and her stem cell transplant.
Another great accomplishment here is the siding on my house it FINISHED :-D I'm so happy with the way it looks. There for a while during the early stages of the projects I was worried that things were not going to turn out the way I wanted. Now I know why Ty Pennington sends the homeowners away on vacation while is working [ to keep them out of his way ;-) ], In the end it all worked out and looks GEAT! The only problem now is, because the outside looks like a brand new home it makes the inside look that much older... or at least I think so. But what do you expect from a one hundred and fifty year old farm house?
On April 25th me beloved Great Dane, Dayna, passed away. I got her six years ago, when she was three and a half months old. Since her passing my home feels like empty, even though I have two other dogs. While living in this house I have never been without her, she moved into this house with me and at the time I had no other dogs, so I think that is why it feels so different.
On May 27th my maternal Grandmother passed away. I never really had a grandmother/granddaughter relationship with my Grandma and I always felt that when she passed I'd have a guilty feeling because I had never gotten to know her. I was with her for the last two days before she passed and I was also with her at the time of her passing. I don't know what it is about being with her at that time, and witnessing the transition from this world to the next, but I am totally at peace with her passing and the fact that I had never knew her better. I feel that I knew of Gramma what I was supposed to know. Sometimes there are circumstances in our lives that prevent us from doing what we think we "should" do, and we sometimes regret not going ahead and doing what ever it was that we thought we should have done. but in my case [ I know a lot of people would think it terrible that I never knew my Grandmother as such, but those people do not know the chain of events that lead up to the reason our family is not close ] I am certain I was supposed to be with Gramma when she passed into the next world. Me being there actually help me as well. I feel, had I not been there to say goodbye I would have forever felt guilty.
Gosh I hate when I get so far behind on this blog ... It takes so much time and effort to remember everything that I need to catch up on ;-) So I'm going to close this for now and come back later, after I've had a chance to think of something else to write..... Hopefully it will be something brilliant ... but don't count on it.
